Beyond the words..

A dreadful day.. morning sun was refreshing.
But it set just before afternoon came..
Woke up from my bed.. blur, unclear..
Then head out the front door while i pet my dog goodbye.
Hour or two later.. i return home frustrated.
Not knowing what to do.. or what to feel..

Beyond the words..
words are made for rational minds..
words are use to prove a point. which can sometimes lead to disaster.
words are use to hurt our love ones.
words are form so man would understand each other..
so that man could rationalize with words.. facts.

Beyond the words..
there where we should be..
at some point, words cant really get use anywhere..
all we can say is like "Gahh.." or "AHH!"
words are a let down.. it's hard to the right ones to say.
words are a let down.

Beyond the words..
a lawyer stood up in the court and defended his client.
but can his words be trusted?
is he defending the innocent or the guilty..
i doubt he even knows..
words can be used to twist the mind of the righteous.

Beyond the words..
feelings? or just the old "follow your heart" saying?
I honestly don't know..
I just wanna surrender.. i wish words wouldn't exist in my mouth..
so i wouldnt rationalize with the One who created words in the first place.
His words are used perfectly..
so rational.. to the extent that we cannot understand.

But beyond the words..
there is good in it..
"thank you", "hello!" or just a simple "nice to see you again"
are in fact words that heal the heart..
words that create laughter..
and smiles.

Beyond the words..
its good to see you smile,
despite knowing what I wrote.
As long as it was about you..
it was enough..
the words didn't matter..

Beyond the words,
i saw your feelings..
through the words you wrote.
I smiled.. i was glad you were happy.
If words are a currency,
i would definitely use it to buy your smile.

"seems like another day.. where the happiness fade and repentance came."
Kenji