Beyond the words..

A dreadful day.. morning sun was refreshing.
But it set just before afternoon came..
Woke up from my bed.. blur, unclear..
Then head out the front door while i pet my dog goodbye.
Hour or two later.. i return home frustrated.
Not knowing what to do.. or what to feel..

Beyond the words..
words are made for rational minds..
words are use to prove a point. which can sometimes lead to disaster.
words are use to hurt our love ones.
words are form so man would understand each other..
so that man could rationalize with words.. facts.

Beyond the words..
there where we should be..
at some point, words cant really get use anywhere..
all we can say is like "Gahh.." or "AHH!"
words are a let down.. it's hard to the right ones to say.
words are a let down.

Beyond the words..
a lawyer stood up in the court and defended his client.
but can his words be trusted?
is he defending the innocent or the guilty..
i doubt he even knows..
words can be used to twist the mind of the righteous.

Beyond the words..
feelings? or just the old "follow your heart" saying?
I honestly don't know..
I just wanna surrender.. i wish words wouldn't exist in my mouth..
so i wouldnt rationalize with the One who created words in the first place.
His words are used perfectly..
so rational.. to the extent that we cannot understand.

But beyond the words..
there is good in it..
"thank you", "hello!" or just a simple "nice to see you again"
are in fact words that heal the heart..
words that create laughter..
and smiles.

Beyond the words..
its good to see you smile,
despite knowing what I wrote.
As long as it was about you..
it was enough..
the words didn't matter..

Beyond the words,
i saw your feelings..
through the words you wrote.
I smiled.. i was glad you were happy.
If words are a currency,
i would definitely use it to buy your smile.

"seems like another day.. where the happiness fade and repentance came."
Kenji

Illusions.

Love..
The world defines it as sex...
Love is sex they say.
If love is sex.. wouldnt you sleep with your family members to express your love?
In conclusion..
Love is not sex..
nor sex is love.

Love..
The world's way of expressing such emotion, feeling.. is just saddening.
In the movies..
Sally loves her husband so much she was willing to sleep with his boss..
..to help him keep his job..
If that is love.. shouldnt we all break our love one's heart just to express love?
Willing to cheat on your wife so you can give her riches..
That's just stupid.

Love..
The world's definition is twisted.
Holding hands with your girlfriend doesn't mean you love her..
A kiss, a hug.. they don't come close to expressing love.
Let's be reminded how to love.
It's so simple.. yet so complicated.

John 3.16 - For God so LOVE the world that he GAVE his only son....

Jesus.. My God.. My Lord.. My saviour..
His definition of love is giving..
He gave his best.. his life just so we can go back to God.
That's the greatest love story anyone can tell..
Even better than that story bout the boy taking a bullet for his girlfriend..
Jesus went through torment and torture for us..

Love..
The true way of loving is to give..
A hen will give up her body to protect the chicks from being a hawk's meal.
A husband gives his wife security,
his wife gives him support in return..
A husband gives up his happy day to comfort his wife when she is crying,
his wife gives in and submit to her husband when he makes a decision.

Love..
I don't know how to express my love towards the one who 1st love me..
Except acknowledge Him.. and spend time with him..
Listening to him..
Even though its hard.. but i m giving in and submitting to him.

What better way to love is there than giving?



'Seems like another day to look to the heavens above and imagine how far Jesus came just to give His life for us.'

Kenji

Love enough to let go..

Unintentionally i saw a figure.. a shadow..
of the past, the memories, the gone..
Still can't let it go eh?
Smile on your face everyday,
Pushing back the sorrow and pain each day.

Curiosity? or was it just for fun?
I don't know..
Seems like you're tied down..
not knowing what to do..
Holding on to hopes..
which never existed.

Come on, get up..
Be a man..
Let go of the smile,
let go of those eyes..
Let go of the things you hold.

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Worrying bout each day..
Worrying bout the price to pay..
Worrying bout the right words to say..
endlessly going on each day.

Drinking in your own tears..
Putting aside your fears..
After all those years..
words can't get through those ears..

It's ok..
I promise i will do the best to make it great for you in the future.. No matter how hard it takes. I got God along my side. Like i said before, the future will be where you will be carrying your grandchildren and smiles on everyone's face. Worries will disappear, only thing left is what you've always wanted. Peace and happiness.

Happy birthday dear mother =)
Kenji

Like another

Like another day where we wake up and smile at the heavens..
Like another day where we eat breakfast and think bout our day ahead..
Like another day where we brush our teeth and make commitments to appointments..
Like another day where we dress up and ready for the challenges..

Like another day we disappoint ourselves..
Like another day we look in the mirror telling ourselves to do better..
Like another day we scream in our hearts..
Like another day we make mistakes..

Like another..
Like another..
Can't go living on like another person..
Get up! Its another day.. another moment.

Someday.. Somehow
I ll be able to smile again..
Looking back at those mistakes
just like another memory.

Kenji