Here I am lying on my back,
facing the night skies,
with stars so bright..
every just feels right.
But then again..
i can't help but to look around,
wondering if you would show up.
haha, i know you won't.
there's no invitation in the first place,
If i could describe you,
I'd say you are from a different world,
where I can't seem to reach.
Day by day,
I d check to see if you have arrived,
seems like a routine to me now.
and.. i can't explain why.
occasionally, i see you right there,
just meters away,
but courage doesnt seem to be my best friend,
only assumption is.
I tried very hard,
but the thought of me screwing up,
making a fool of myself..
I'd laugh at my own stupidity.
If i could describe you.
If i could..
Ever existing beauty..
simple but complex personality..
typical but just a pinch of mystery..
helps me hope..
even if you didn't know it..
really... I'm still figuring out how to do this.
All i can say is..
"You are the most beautiful girl i ve ever seen."
=Seems Like Another Day.
When You wake up in the morning.. wishing your dreams were real.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
When it rains..
When it rains..
The sun is covered in dark clouds..
Dark cloud covers the view of Heaven..
Raindrops fall down from heaven above.
I looked up and saw nothing but darkness,
the cold raindrops reminded me of my life,
how it is cold and how it doesn't seem right.
A small raindrop hurts like a prick in your skin.
Under the roof, there's depression.
Screams are sounding off at every corner,
Worry is rising from the depth of the heart,
silent cries which remains unheard.
I find joy in playing the drums,
because it silence the world around me,
only the sound of the beat,
and the sound of the stage could be heard.
But there's always a hope,
when it rains, you can see the sun
shining oh so bright,
as the rainbow appear after it rains.
The sound of the crowd,
under the stage
cheering you on,
still can be heard.
The world around me,
it still matters,
it still meanings something,
it still brings joy.
Under the roof,
it is the screams that make me appreciate,
it is the worry that motivates me
it is the cry that makes joy worth laughing about.
It is when it rains,
you know it's going to stop,
and so you wait,
patiently for heaven to appear again.
it is through the dark times when we wait for God,
but God never fails to show himself,
by drying up the rainwater,
by showing us a rainbow of hope.
A hand on your shoulder..
telling you to hold on..
just a little longer,
the rain will stop soon..
The most beautiful words you can say to a boy,
a boy like me..
"thank you Father for such words"
Kenji
-seems like another day, where hope is renewed and we live for yet another day.
The sun is covered in dark clouds..
Dark cloud covers the view of Heaven..
Raindrops fall down from heaven above.
I looked up and saw nothing but darkness,
the cold raindrops reminded me of my life,
how it is cold and how it doesn't seem right.
A small raindrop hurts like a prick in your skin.
Under the roof, there's depression.
Screams are sounding off at every corner,
Worry is rising from the depth of the heart,
silent cries which remains unheard.
I find joy in playing the drums,
because it silence the world around me,
only the sound of the beat,
and the sound of the stage could be heard.
But there's always a hope,
when it rains, you can see the sun
shining oh so bright,
as the rainbow appear after it rains.
The sound of the crowd,
under the stage
cheering you on,
still can be heard.
The world around me,
it still matters,
it still meanings something,
it still brings joy.
Under the roof,
it is the screams that make me appreciate,
it is the worry that motivates me
it is the cry that makes joy worth laughing about.
It is when it rains,
you know it's going to stop,
and so you wait,
patiently for heaven to appear again.
it is through the dark times when we wait for God,
but God never fails to show himself,
by drying up the rainwater,
by showing us a rainbow of hope.
A hand on your shoulder..
telling you to hold on..
just a little longer,
the rain will stop soon..
The most beautiful words you can say to a boy,
a boy like me..
"thank you Father for such words"
Kenji
-seems like another day, where hope is renewed and we live for yet another day.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
A letter to you.
10 ways to show I love you.
1. I love you when i help you finish your food to save you from the crime of wasting food.
2. I love you when i tell you that you are perfect the way you are =D
3. I love you when i tell you the truth.
4. I love you when i let you soak my shoulder with tears.
5. I love you when i try so very hard to cheer you up.. unfortunately i m not really good at it XD
6. I love you when i make those special sweet words just for you.
7. I love you when i share your sadness and your pain with you without you knowing it.
8. I love you when i listen to you when you asked me not to go on a diet.
9. I love you when i try so very hard to understand you.
10. I love when i wrote this post and say happy birthday! =D
well, this is it.. as promised. =D
"Seems like another day when we all just feel like blessing someone with words =)"
From your loving friend..
Kenji
1. I love you when i help you finish your food to save you from the crime of wasting food.
2. I love you when i tell you that you are perfect the way you are =D
3. I love you when i tell you the truth.
4. I love you when i let you soak my shoulder with tears.
5. I love you when i try so very hard to cheer you up.. unfortunately i m not really good at it XD
6. I love you when i make those special sweet words just for you.
7. I love you when i share your sadness and your pain with you without you knowing it.
8. I love you when i listen to you when you asked me not to go on a diet.
9. I love you when i try so very hard to understand you.
10. I love when i wrote this post and say happy birthday! =D
well, this is it.. as promised. =D
"Seems like another day when we all just feel like blessing someone with words =)"
From your loving friend..
Kenji
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Be still..
Walking towards the bus stop in a storm,
it was the first time i ever felt cold under the rain,
for the first time..
I didn't want to be under the rain.
I was shivering,
as if I was in Antarctica,
the only thing lacking,
was polar bears and penguins.. and of course.. ice.
The wind blew the rain into my face,
it was.. cold.. very cold.
I hugged my bag tightly,
hoping that heat may somehow reach my skin.
Relieve came when I saw the bus,
I rushed out but the bus couldn't see me in the storm,
It passed me.. like how time passed.. cruelly.
Disappointed.. frustrated.. angry.
I sat down in the rain to prevent anymore missed opportunities.
A bus came and i hoped on,
sadly.. I've made a mistake.
It doesn't take me to my destination.
Drenched.. cold.. and impatient.
I kept looking at my phone every minute,
hoping someone would send me a message,
maybe that will relieve my suffering.
Finally I entered the bus,
The air conditioning was blowing directly at my face,
i pushed it aside,
hugging my bag tightly until i reached my destination.
I was relieved to return home.
Much like love,
The wait is unbearable..
Frustrating.
and opportunities might just pass you by.
But it's all a joke,
a final twist to your ending,
when you finally reach where you wanna be.. next to him or her,
The wait was worth it.
It's the wait that grows you,
that trains you,
that makes the ending valuable..
makes the ending worth it.
It's the ending that makes laugh,
and it's the cure for the wait,
it's the reward you get,
for the endurance.
Wait... opportunities will be missed but others will come.
Wait and see.. then you will not get on the wrong bus.
Wait upon the Lord and you will not be wrong,
instead.. what you get will definitely last very long.
"Seems like another day where we realize that waiting is a form of happiness."
kenji
it was the first time i ever felt cold under the rain,
for the first time..
I didn't want to be under the rain.
I was shivering,
as if I was in Antarctica,
the only thing lacking,
was polar bears and penguins.. and of course.. ice.
The wind blew the rain into my face,
it was.. cold.. very cold.
I hugged my bag tightly,
hoping that heat may somehow reach my skin.
Relieve came when I saw the bus,
I rushed out but the bus couldn't see me in the storm,
It passed me.. like how time passed.. cruelly.
Disappointed.. frustrated.. angry.
I sat down in the rain to prevent anymore missed opportunities.
A bus came and i hoped on,
sadly.. I've made a mistake.
It doesn't take me to my destination.
Drenched.. cold.. and impatient.
I kept looking at my phone every minute,
hoping someone would send me a message,
maybe that will relieve my suffering.
Finally I entered the bus,
The air conditioning was blowing directly at my face,
i pushed it aside,
hugging my bag tightly until i reached my destination.
I was relieved to return home.
Much like love,
The wait is unbearable..
Frustrating.
and opportunities might just pass you by.
But it's all a joke,
a final twist to your ending,
when you finally reach where you wanna be.. next to him or her,
The wait was worth it.
It's the wait that grows you,
that trains you,
that makes the ending valuable..
makes the ending worth it.
It's the ending that makes laugh,
and it's the cure for the wait,
it's the reward you get,
for the endurance.
Wait... opportunities will be missed but others will come.
Wait and see.. then you will not get on the wrong bus.
Wait upon the Lord and you will not be wrong,
instead.. what you get will definitely last very long.
"Seems like another day where we realize that waiting is a form of happiness."
kenji
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Beyond the words..
A dreadful day.. morning sun was refreshing.
But it set just before afternoon came..
Woke up from my bed.. blur, unclear..
Then head out the front door while i pet my dog goodbye.
Hour or two later.. i return home frustrated.
Not knowing what to do.. or what to feel..
Beyond the words..
words are made for rational minds..
words are use to prove a point. which can sometimes lead to disaster.
words are use to hurt our love ones.
words are form so man would understand each other..
so that man could rationalize with words.. facts.
Beyond the words..
there where we should be..
at some point, words cant really get use anywhere..
all we can say is like "Gahh.." or "AHH!"
words are a let down.. it's hard to the right ones to say.
words are a let down.
Beyond the words..
a lawyer stood up in the court and defended his client.
but can his words be trusted?
is he defending the innocent or the guilty..
i doubt he even knows..
words can be used to twist the mind of the righteous.
Beyond the words..
feelings? or just the old "follow your heart" saying?
I honestly don't know..
I just wanna surrender.. i wish words wouldn't exist in my mouth..
so i wouldnt rationalize with the One who created words in the first place.
His words are used perfectly..
so rational.. to the extent that we cannot understand.
But beyond the words..
there is good in it..
"thank you", "hello!" or just a simple "nice to see you again"
are in fact words that heal the heart..
words that create laughter..
and smiles.
Beyond the words..
its good to see you smile,
despite knowing what I wrote.
As long as it was about you..
it was enough..
the words didn't matter..
Beyond the words,
i saw your feelings..
through the words you wrote.
I smiled.. i was glad you were happy.
If words are a currency,
i would definitely use it to buy your smile.
"seems like another day.. where the happiness fade and repentance came."
Kenji
But it set just before afternoon came..
Woke up from my bed.. blur, unclear..
Then head out the front door while i pet my dog goodbye.
Hour or two later.. i return home frustrated.
Not knowing what to do.. or what to feel..
Beyond the words..
words are made for rational minds..
words are use to prove a point. which can sometimes lead to disaster.
words are use to hurt our love ones.
words are form so man would understand each other..
so that man could rationalize with words.. facts.
Beyond the words..
there where we should be..
at some point, words cant really get use anywhere..
all we can say is like "Gahh.." or "AHH!"
words are a let down.. it's hard to the right ones to say.
words are a let down.
Beyond the words..
a lawyer stood up in the court and defended his client.
but can his words be trusted?
is he defending the innocent or the guilty..
i doubt he even knows..
words can be used to twist the mind of the righteous.
Beyond the words..
feelings? or just the old "follow your heart" saying?
I honestly don't know..
I just wanna surrender.. i wish words wouldn't exist in my mouth..
so i wouldnt rationalize with the One who created words in the first place.
His words are used perfectly..
so rational.. to the extent that we cannot understand.
But beyond the words..
there is good in it..
"thank you", "hello!" or just a simple "nice to see you again"
are in fact words that heal the heart..
words that create laughter..
and smiles.
Beyond the words..
its good to see you smile,
despite knowing what I wrote.
As long as it was about you..
it was enough..
the words didn't matter..
Beyond the words,
i saw your feelings..
through the words you wrote.
I smiled.. i was glad you were happy.
If words are a currency,
i would definitely use it to buy your smile.
"seems like another day.. where the happiness fade and repentance came."
Kenji
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Illusions.
Love..
The world defines it as sex...
Love is sex they say.
If love is sex.. wouldnt you sleep with your family members to express your love?
In conclusion..
Love is not sex..
nor sex is love.
Love..
The world's way of expressing such emotion, feeling.. is just saddening.
In the movies..
Sally loves her husband so much she was willing to sleep with his boss..
..to help him keep his job..
If that is love.. shouldnt we all break our love one's heart just to express love?
Willing to cheat on your wife so you can give her riches..
That's just stupid.
Love..
The world's definition is twisted.
Holding hands with your girlfriend doesn't mean you love her..
A kiss, a hug.. they don't come close to expressing love.
Let's be reminded how to love.
It's so simple.. yet so complicated.
John 3.16 - For God so LOVE the world that he GAVE his only son....
Jesus.. My God.. My Lord.. My saviour..
His definition of love is giving..
He gave his best.. his life just so we can go back to God.
That's the greatest love story anyone can tell..
Even better than that story bout the boy taking a bullet for his girlfriend..
Jesus went through torment and torture for us..
Love..
The true way of loving is to give..
A hen will give up her body to protect the chicks from being a hawk's meal.
A husband gives his wife security,
his wife gives him support in return..
A husband gives up his happy day to comfort his wife when she is crying,
his wife gives in and submit to her husband when he makes a decision.
Love..
I don't know how to express my love towards the one who 1st love me..
Except acknowledge Him.. and spend time with him..
Listening to him..
Even though its hard.. but i m giving in and submitting to him.
What better way to love is there than giving?
'Seems like another day to look to the heavens above and imagine how far Jesus came just to give His life for us.'
Kenji
The world defines it as sex...
Love is sex they say.
If love is sex.. wouldnt you sleep with your family members to express your love?
In conclusion..
Love is not sex..
nor sex is love.
Love..
The world's way of expressing such emotion, feeling.. is just saddening.
In the movies..
Sally loves her husband so much she was willing to sleep with his boss..
..to help him keep his job..
If that is love.. shouldnt we all break our love one's heart just to express love?
Willing to cheat on your wife so you can give her riches..
That's just stupid.
Love..
The world's definition is twisted.
Holding hands with your girlfriend doesn't mean you love her..
A kiss, a hug.. they don't come close to expressing love.
Let's be reminded how to love.
It's so simple.. yet so complicated.
John 3.16 - For God so LOVE the world that he GAVE his only son....
Jesus.. My God.. My Lord.. My saviour..
His definition of love is giving..
He gave his best.. his life just so we can go back to God.
That's the greatest love story anyone can tell..
Even better than that story bout the boy taking a bullet for his girlfriend..
Jesus went through torment and torture for us..
Love..
The true way of loving is to give..
A hen will give up her body to protect the chicks from being a hawk's meal.
A husband gives his wife security,
his wife gives him support in return..
A husband gives up his happy day to comfort his wife when she is crying,
his wife gives in and submit to her husband when he makes a decision.
Love..
I don't know how to express my love towards the one who 1st love me..
Except acknowledge Him.. and spend time with him..
Listening to him..
Even though its hard.. but i m giving in and submitting to him.
What better way to love is there than giving?
'Seems like another day to look to the heavens above and imagine how far Jesus came just to give His life for us.'
Kenji
Monday, November 16, 2009
Love enough to let go..
Unintentionally i saw a figure.. a shadow..
of the past, the memories, the gone..
Still can't let it go eh?
Smile on your face everyday,
Pushing back the sorrow and pain each day.
Curiosity? or was it just for fun?
I don't know..
Seems like you're tied down..
not knowing what to do..
Holding on to hopes..
which never existed.
Come on, get up..
Be a man..
Let go of the smile,
let go of those eyes..
Let go of the things you hold.
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Worrying bout each day..
Worrying bout the price to pay..
Worrying bout the right words to say..
endlessly going on each day.
Drinking in your own tears..
Putting aside your fears..
After all those years..
words can't get through those ears..
It's ok..
I promise i will do the best to make it great for you in the future.. No matter how hard it takes. I got God along my side. Like i said before, the future will be where you will be carrying your grandchildren and smiles on everyone's face. Worries will disappear, only thing left is what you've always wanted. Peace and happiness.
Happy birthday dear mother =)
Kenji
of the past, the memories, the gone..
Still can't let it go eh?
Smile on your face everyday,
Pushing back the sorrow and pain each day.
Curiosity? or was it just for fun?
I don't know..
Seems like you're tied down..
not knowing what to do..
Holding on to hopes..
which never existed.
Come on, get up..
Be a man..
Let go of the smile,
let go of those eyes..
Let go of the things you hold.
==========================================================
Worrying bout each day..
Worrying bout the price to pay..
Worrying bout the right words to say..
endlessly going on each day.
Drinking in your own tears..
Putting aside your fears..
After all those years..
words can't get through those ears..
It's ok..
I promise i will do the best to make it great for you in the future.. No matter how hard it takes. I got God along my side. Like i said before, the future will be where you will be carrying your grandchildren and smiles on everyone's face. Worries will disappear, only thing left is what you've always wanted. Peace and happiness.
Happy birthday dear mother =)
Kenji
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