Thursday, December 25, 2008

End..

I figured if i think real hard.. i can remember all bout this year. Unfortunately I can't. So I think i m just gonna thank God for everything He has blessed me with this year.
  1. God's gift to me was bringing me to Teenacity, i went there during the Christmas season in 2007.
  2. He brought me new and cool frens =)
  3. He made changed me from quiet and no self-confidence into some1 who can talk and have more confidence in the things i do.
  4. I thank God he took pride out of me. Especially in drumming.
  5. I thank God he helped me improve on my drumming skills.
  6. He taught how to be a man.
  7. He helped me grow in Him.
  8. He helped me with my jealousy problem.
  9. I thank God I didn't get into a lot of fights this year.
  10. I thank God i'm still standing even in my situation. I know He s gonna take me out of it.
This are the 10 things tat I really wanna thank God for. But of course, thr's other stuff also. But just 10 will do for now =).

Msg to God : I wanna go out of 2008 being a revolution. Thanks for a Great Year!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Oh.. ok

A man who thinks he's nothing.

He fell in love with a girl,
but he thinks she's too good for him.
He starts to think about his negative side.
Slowly, it finally cause him pain.

He notices she's popular,
and he's a quiet and unpopular,
who prefers to sit in the corner,
being silent as a mime.

Thinking because he's quiet,
he's uninteresting,
every attempt to make her laugh,
he fails and gives her a lame image.

He notices her beauty,
her sweet smile and joyful laughter,
and he sees himself as normal,
thinking it will never happen.

With such a low self esteem,
he notices he have sleepless nights,
just laying in bed,
thinking of pointless thoughts.

Everytime she talks to him,
he prefer to remain silent,
or at least just a hi,
he thinks it will save his image.

But finally he came to his senses,
he open himself to God,
and God took that burden away,
he could sleep with a sweet dream again.

He notices he has a handful of friends,
but all of them are his close friends,
just like a family,
and non of them say he s an outcast.

He notices he's not that uninteresting after all,
he have friends talking to him online,
he crack some jokes and make them laugh,
and some shares secrets with him.

He notices looks aren't important,
being a gentlemen is much more important,
knowing how to treat a girl,
and respect them in every way.

After all that,
He notices he's still not ready for her,
he still needs to grow,
so he chose to wait.

Every night he prays for her,
and he commits her onto the Lord,
knowing that she is not he's but the Lord's,
saying "if its Your will, then let it be done."














But Your love came to me.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Father..

I'm not mad,
I too am sad that i can't do it,
but i don't think there is a choice,
It's ok, I ll take the full responsibility.

I look up to you,
even though sometimes you might not understand,
somehow, i know you are right,
you have thought me how to be a man.

In my life, I only seen you cry once,
and that time, i understood,
How much family means to you,
Thanks for teaching me that.

You always do your best to provide,
even though you have worries,
but u never show it,
You have taught me to be strong.

You put your pride aside,
when pride is important to you,
just to keep us going,
You taught me how to be humble.

You are a man of God,
you have have become my spiritual mentor,
now, i ll keep moving with God
because I have seen God's works through you.

You have taught me patience,
now, i too am always calm,
You've thought me when to be angry,
and now i can be angry at the right things.

Dad, you are my mentor in life,
You are a big blessing to me,
I don't think our family will be alive,
without you supporting and praying for us.

My prayer is for God to bless you,
I too want to bless you,
I promise I will give the best to you and mom,
I want both of you to enjoy the rest of your life.

Dad, thanks for everything,
thanks for your daily hugs,
thanks for your love,
I love you dad.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

memories and the present..

Seems like it was just yesterday,
I came to where I am today,
back to my home town,
where I remember thoughts that frown.

My grandpa used to be my best friend,
but when his time end,
i couldn't drop a tear,
but that has passed for over a years.

Time flies when you are growing up,
but I too see love ones giving up
either its on life or hope,
I m still holding on and trying to cope.

Back in sabah I was still a kid,
now in those clothes i could no longer fit,
Now, i still miss my friends back there,
now, about them more i care.

And here, I too met someone,
just when i thought i was done,
i didn't believe it at first,
but now it is worst.

But I know now ain't the time,
even thou it's not really a crime,
maybe I don't think i am good enough yet,
so i ll wait and grow to the strongest i can get.

Mentally and spiritually,
i know God wants it to be that way,
Thank you Lord for leading me,
and please mold me to the man You wan me to be.

random i guess ;)

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Reasons

Why do I always remain silent?
Because I don't wanna offend people

Why do I like cartoons?
Because i don't get to watch my favourite shows when I was a kid

Why do I like to play drums?
caus i think its cool =D

Why do I like to eat so much?
caus my parents say I eat too little or maybe i just have a big appetite

Why am I always so tired?
caus I don't get enough sleep

Why can't I laugh alone?
Caus its funnier with a group of people

Why was the previous post so emo?
Caus it was a random thought..

Why is it a random thought?
Caus i was bored

Why post a random thought?
Caus maybe it will make her smile.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Thoughts

When i see you having fun with other guys,
i don't feel jealous at all..
in fact, i wonder to myself..
what can i do to just make your smile appear.

When i see you walking pass me,
I just wanna walk up and say hi,
or maybe even telling you how beautiful you look..
but i never have the courage to do it.

When i see you online,
i just wanna ask you how was your day..
or maybe just find out if you are still smiling,
but i never seem to find the right words.

When i m doing something,
i never fail to check if u messaged,
but when you messaged,
i can't say a word to you.

It seems i can never find the right words,
because i am afraid i ll say the wrong ones.